Experience : War

Even fought a war? Or ever witnessed it? How does it feel between the loud noises of guns and bombs where you can only differentiate which side made that sound - you or them? How does it feel when you are so uncertain about your death? At any moment you can be blown into pieces before you come to know that you don’t exist anymore. But a war inside the head is even worse. A continuous fight between two beings is a real pain, and unfortunately both of them are a part of you only – may be independent or may be overlapping. And in that utter chaos you hear the sounds louder, sharper and more terrifying than any gun or bomb present today. You don’t know which side made that sound and why because you don’t know on which side you are and what you are? And you feel that your head will burst with such a great force that its pieces will spread in whole universe. You are glad that at least now you are thinking big. But nothing will happen to your body except some contortions in the stomach – how interesting. Being in a battlefield is less bad than the battlefield in you. If you die in the battlefield, you might get a medal, you have a reason to fight, you have a reason to die or may be a reason to live and most importantly you know who your enemy is.

-jas